Drive and Determination For All the Small Things Too!

_Put your heart, mind, intellect and soul even to your smallest acts. This is the secret of success._ --Swami Sivananda 1

The drive in the eyes of Philadelphia Phillies Left Fielder, Rhys Hoskins at the Home Run Derby coming in as the very bottom 8 seed was excellent.  That “look” he had in his eyes is one I have seen in my own eyes and the eyes of others.  I think the look was actually terror because he had not had a home run since June 29, 2018. 😉  Love ya Rhys, and great job!!!

Yes, I confess, I watched the Home Run Derby and All-Star Game.  Yes, I am a baseball girl.  Go Phillies!  Not only were both of the games entertaining, but they were also nerve-racking, and I was not even participating. 

I noticed so many things about the two nights:  the youth of the players, how much fun they were having, their physical strength and mostly that “look” in all of their eyes.  Determination, Drive, Conviction, Dedication.  They did not appear to look at the game any differently than any other day.

I do understand that most of these men get paid great money to play a game, but it is the “look” that I am talking about.  It is more than the money and fame because I also see it in the eyes of my bowling friends, my parents, a tee-baller or even a famous singer. That drive, determination, fierceness, it is something that once seen cannot be forgotten.

We, humans, get that look in our eyes but why does it waiver?  Why do our eyes sparkle when we get a reward for a task or a promotion and not when we are doing chores and working?   Should that “look” not be there for every aspect of our lives?  My answer is yes, but how to make that happen, in the words of the main man Yoda, “Have the answers I do not!”


I can offer some suggestions, words, help, and hope but not answers.  One reason I think we forget that fierceness is that we change.  We change physically, emotionally, mentally but we also change because of our experiences as we age.  I know I see things now at 39 much differently than when I was 18.  I have been through things that have made me accept new ideas.  But those ideals should not change my drive, dreams, hopes, giving 100% of myself in everything I do.

Another problem we may encounter is dismissing/devaluing things within our lives.  When others dismiss our feelings, trials, and beliefs or even if we discount our own beliefs, it can change the way we perceive and deal with everything in our lives.  Have you ever had an experience, thought or belief be entirely discounted by another?  Not only does it feel crappy, but it might also change the way you perceive things.  And as I have been hounding since I started my blog, we don’t dismiss/discount, and it is all about how someone perceives things.  🙂

I see all too often we put ourselves wholly into things when we get something tangible out of it.   But why are we not driven when we do the small stuff?  I know they may not be the same, but everything we do should be with 100%.  I fall into this trap all too often, but I am trying to recognize it a DO better.  Remember: there is no trying, do or do not only.

Lastly, we must keep in mind, everything we get to do is a gift.  Breathing, living, having fun.  Every little thing and every day are gifts.  If we put it in this light, maybe we can remember to have that “look” in our eyes for everything we do.   

Watching these hugely talented young men reminded me of perseverance, drive, and inspiration in my own life and seeing that “look” within my own eyes.  It helped me to perceive things in a little different light and hopefully, you can too!

Remember, you are NOT alone!  Until next time.  –Jenn


Welcome July in all your Splendor!

Happy July 1st!

Happy birthday Nanny Grammy, love and miss you!  I cannot think of a better way to bring in July than with a beautiful human’s birthday!!

What comes to mind when you think of July?

For me it is birthdays!!!  My Great Grandmom, Grandmom, Mom and myself were all born in July! Not to mention another 10-15 people in my life.  So October was a busy month! 😉

Family beach vacations, sun, heat, July 4th, swimming, cook-outs all come to mind.  July always makes me happy!

The one thing that I do not find as exciting as everyone else is my birthday.  I have not always felt this way, but it has been a vicious cycle for many years.  I know I am worthy of celebration but what happens when you just do not want to be celebrated or see the reason to celebrate?  I am so guilty of this, especially this year because I am hitting a giant Sand Dune! 40!!!

Have you stopped appreciating yourself?  Have a hard time taking compliments?  Can you not see the things other see?

This is me, yes to all three of the above.  I have stopped appreciating myself and therefore think others should fall suit.  Jenn, why would you do that?  Sometimes it is just easier to believe the negative than to look for the positive because your mind has thought that way for so long.  There is not always an answer I can provide, people may just feel this way.

However, this year I am going to try to embrace my birthday and every day in a more positive and welcoming light.  I have tried my way and failed for far too long, don’t you think I should try something new?  How about you?

Do any of you not feel worthy?  It does not have to be about your birthday it can be any aspect of life.  Know that you are worthy of everything and more!!  The voices in your head were put there by you and others.  You were not born with these things.  Therefore, you can change those voices to like you instead.

The P!nk song “F***ing Perfect” says all of this beautifully!  This song is so inspiring and is my song for you, today and every day!  You are Perfect!  *Explicit lyrics, sorry 😦

“You’re so mean, when you talk, about yourself you were wrong.  Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead!”    

Could it be said any better?

Know that you are enough.  You deserve to be celebrated!  Be kind to yourself and allow compliments and celebrations.  We owe it to ourselves to be kind, forgive and remember we are humans at the end of the day!


Until next time, you are not alone! –Jenn





Just who is this blogger? 10 things about me

I figured it might be a good idea to let you all know a little more about me.  We have been doing this thing together for over a week now.  As a reader myself, I find that when I know more about a person, I not only feel as though I have a connection but also more trusting and open to their words.

10 Random Facts About Me

  1. I am an only child.
  2. I am a bowler.  I have done so for almost 30 years.
  3. I became a certified bowling coach when I was 16.
  4. I went to school to be a Radiologic Technologist (Xray Tech).
  5. I have an Associates Degree in Middle School Education.
  6. I have 11 cats all but one of them we rescued from outside.
  7. I have a very large extended family.
  8. I post tons of pictures of the Beach because it is my MOST favorite place.
  9. I am a music buff.  My taste is eclectic from P!nk, Led Zeppelin, Michael Buble, Blake Shelton, Trisha Yearwood, 5 Finger Death Punch to Van Morrison.
  10. I have been dealing with depression since my early teens but only sought help as an adult.


I hope you enjoyed getting to know me a little better.  Until tomorrow remember this:

  • During your lifetime, you will produce enough saliva to fill 2 swimming pools
  • You cannot snore and dream at the same time
  • The average person walks the equivalent of twice around the world in a lifetime.
  • Vending machines are twice as likely to kill you than a shark.  Watch out for those things in the ocean!

Remember…you are NOT alone!  Until next time — J

Finding Hope and a Smile On a Bad Day


What happens when you lose hope and inspiration seems so far away?

It is so easy to get lost in negativity, pain, sadness, and darkness.  This world can be such a cruel, harsh place.  But…it is so utterly gorgeous and to think it was made for all of us to enjoy and share.   So awesome!

Many humans know that feeling of hopelessness and needing inspiration.  You know the one: nothing is good enough, the sky is not blue, my pain is worse than anyone’s ever, why would my God allow terrible things to happen.  Sound familiar?  Anything can get you into the blues, it does not take much, and there are days it is hard to see the beauty, hope, positivity, and inspiration this world has to offer.

This is when you need to look for the smallest hidden gems. Whatever those may be to you.  For me, I try to watch the birds, listen to the ocean, play with my cats, or sit out on the porch and listen to nature.  Sometimes those things are just not enough. Here is a collage of pictures I’ve taken for inspiration for you!!


inspiration photos
***All photos here and above except pepper taken by Jenn Freese


When you find yourself stuck in the lonely darkness, try stepping back and looking at your situation as though you were an outsider.  Or you can even reach out to a good friend and have them help get you out of that funk.  When all else fails, look for something small.  Baby steps, although short in distance, still arrive at the destination!!!

Remember: even the happiest, most successful people have bad days!  Some of your days will be crappy, and some will be wonderful but try not to let what is going on dictate your day and mood.  You can change your mind, you ALLOW others to affect you.  Look to the good and positive as much as possible because what you look for and put out to the universe you will receive two-fold.

If you cannot find hope and inspiration from others or within, be the inspiration.  Make a positive difference in someone’s day, it will make you feel better.  Say a kind word, hold a door, start a blog, let someone know they are not alone.  Sometimes we need to be the leaders even though it’s scary.  As humans, we need to practice inspiration, kindness, love, and acceptance every day.

Because only by practice can we even strive to be better but never perfect.

Kindness is a muscle. The more we use it, the more it grows!” –David J. Flood

Until next time–J


The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! My name is Jenn and I’m a 39-year-old living in a small town in Pennsylvania.  I am not claiming to know anything here or to be a professional but I get it.  Life can be hard even when it seems like everything is going great.  But keep something in mind…you are NEVER alone.  I wish I would have known that so many times when my world was unraveling around me.

I have struggled with depression most of my life.  As a teen, I don’t think I understood what I was feeling, let alone, why I was feeling it.  I think that was the hardest time because no one around me really understood what was going on.  See, if you have never dealt with depression, you really don’t get it.  How can someone be sad all the time?  The answer is…I have no idea and feel ashamed because of it.  But I’m here to tell you not only are you NOT alone, and it will get better with time and some work.  Oh, another thing that helps is getting older cause kids can be mean.

I’m an only child so most of my woes would be heard by the parental units or my friends but I like most people would internalize.  No one wants to hear you whine.  Everyone is busy with their own lives.  I don’t want to bother anyone.  Sound familiar??!  STOP making excuses for everyone around you and ask for help.  Talk.  Find a person you trust, it doesn’t matter who they are or what they do!  We are out there.  Honestly, there are so many people who feel just like you do even if their lives seem completely different.  If you feel like an anomaly, freak, weirdo, or even the most “normal” person out there, you can feel alone.

My goal for this blog is to let you know you are not alone.  We are out there and we can help each other through this thing we call life.  Be kind, you just never know what is going on in someone else’s life!!!  Until next time–J

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton